A bit more

Apr. 23rd, 2030 10:05 am
viciousteeth: (Old Heather)
[personal profile] viciousteeth
First, I'd like to thank all of the folks that have invited me into their little corner of the world. I look forward to getting to know all of you and catching myself up (Yeah, I'm really going to read as many back entries as possible) As you know my name is Heather, I'm a 37 year old INFP, if those letters don't make sense, it basically means you're dealing with a squishy, laid back, awkward, hermit type person. I lead a pretty uneventful and quiet life. This isn't a complaint, I'm quite happy to have my boring, simple, little life because the first 20 years of my life weren't so happy, so simple, or so quiet. I have responsibilities (Not many, cause, ick) some bills, and obligations, though I usually try to avoid them cause, ick.  If there is something you would like to know that I haven't covered in this feel free to ask. Sometimes, it's hard to know exactly what to include in an introductory post, and what information people will find of interest or importance.

I live in a small town in Pennsylvania that is exactly a half hour from PennState, an hour away from Harrisburg, and over 2 hours away from one of my favorite cities, Philadelphia.  If you've never been to Mutters medical museum, you should go! It's a bit smaller than what you'd think, but they have a gigantic colon there, so I think it's worth the car ride! I moved to Lewistown (The armpit I was referring to) over ten years ago from York (I was about 14 ish. Maybe a bit more ish than 14) and I still have no idea where anything is at. I never took the time to memorize locations because I never thought I was going to be here all that long. So when someone says, do you know the 5 points or industrial park is, I just nod my head, even though I have no idea what they're on about. I thought I'd be passing through because we never stayed in one place very long, my mother used to say that my father had gypsy blood in him. I think I might've inherited a bit of the restlessness myself, but as much as I like to wander, I like to know that I have a home, though where that home is, I'm not entirely sure. I've lived here the longest, but it doesn't feel as welcoming as I think home should feel all the time.

When I was younger, I used to think a lot about living in the city. As I've gotten older though, I couldn't imagine myself being happy in a place with so much activity. Part of me likes the anonymity and that no one knows my story, but the other part could not handle the noise or energy. I do like the quite surrounding of where I live now, but I hate having to duck down isles, or pretend that I didn't see someone to avoid conversation. This isn't to say I don't like people, or conversations, I absolutely do, but all I am ever given is commentary on the weather, complaints about the price of things, and gossip about people I don't care to keep up with. I get small talk, I understand it, but I'm not a fan. It makes me anxious because I'm not quite sure how to keep it going!

Let's see what else....

I can be a bit shy, even on the internet! I try to imagine the people on the other side of the screen sitting on the toilet with their pants around their ankle, or wearing cowboy hats while they're reading or typing a response, but it doesn't help all that much. Maybe that's more than what you needed to know, or what you should know, but it's out there now and we all have to live with it. (See what I mean about what to share and what to leave out!) There was a time that I was so shy, I used to hand items over that I wanted and had other people pay for them because I was so worried the cashier would talk to me, and I wouldn't know what to say back. I laugh about it now (You can too, it's totally cool) but that used to be such a huge thing for me.

As I've said, I don't have particulars, or preferences really when it comes to friending people. I've met many people who I've shared many interest with, but found it difficult to relate to or click with. Then there have been others where we hated each others taste in movies and music, but our conversations flowed freely and unforced, like good conversations should! We just played well together. Yeah it's nice to nerd out with someone about movies, books or music (I'm into all 3) but it's not really a sturdy foundation to build a friendship on. I take that word friendship seriously, and when I do call someone friend, I do so for life. The end of a friendship is very much like the end of a love affair, because that's what friendships are in a way.

All I expect is that people be authentic, so there is no need to filter me out. I don't want perfection, I want real. The more mistakes, the better! I want to know real people who say what they feel and feel what they say.  Let's see what else...Oh, I give everyone the freedom to be boring (Hey, we are all occasionally. We just bore the balls or ovaries off someone, sometimes. It happens!) and to say something stupid, or silly. I think it's important to give people that. I also accept the dark clouds in people's lives. I don't shy away from it. I know a lot of people do, but I am one that does not. As I've said, I've had pretty rough go of things, so if you think that people don't understand, I just might. And even if I don't, I will try to because it's important to. That's it. I have no other requirements, expectations, or rules.

As for what you can expect from me, it's certainly isn't posts. I'm not saying I won't post, I will. But, I'm much more interested in reading about you than I am writing about myself. I can be quite chatty in the comments section of peoples journal, hopefully that's not a problem, and occasionally, I like to private message people. I mention it because some people may not like that, but sometimes I feel what I say isn't for everyone's eyes. My posts usually range from random thoughts, memories, or stories from my life. Occasionally, I like to share videos, or I may share music or books. I also like to ask my friends list questions because I'm interested in how they feel, or think about certain things. Oh, and I like to post pictures of my cats.


My god, I've written a novel. When I sat down to write this, I intended to keep it short and sweet Heh.

Nice to meet everyone. If we're struggling to make conversations, you're just not feeling it, or whatever. Feel free to remove me. There are no hard feelings! Sometimes I'm just not a good fit for other people.


Other places you can find me on the internets:

Last fm: Viciousteeth

Tumblr: Heartsarelikegraveyards

Spotify: Backslashthroat

Ask.fm: Thatssocliche



Other things I should probably mention that might be important: I'm an agnostic atheist, and Ralph Nader is my political crush. I hope none of these things are an issue. They shouldn't be, but we live in a world where it could be unfortunately.  I don't discuss politics or religion in my journal, but I'm fine with people who do.



Date: 2017-04-23 06:13 pm (UTC)
medleymisty: (Default)
From: [personal profile] medleymisty
Aaahhh, don't read too many of my back entries! ;) Really though, I am kind of ashamed of some of my past entries.

I am also INFP, although I'm not really into MBTI anymore.

I also have a pretty quiet life now with as few responsibilities as I can.

I grew up in a small rural town, but now I live in the biggest city in the state - Charlotte, North Carolina. I actually like it quite a bit. I'm on vacation this week and I've been doing some research for things to explore and do in the city. It looks like it's going to rain a fair bit this week though, sigh.

I have a spousal person who does the cashier thing for me. :) We both have social anxiety, but it manifests differently for both of us and we can pick up each other's slack like that. He interacts with official authorities for me; I get him into guilds and help him make friends in WoW.

I like your thoughts about friendship and accepting mistakes (I guess I feel a bit better now about you checking out my sordid past), and I'm also big on accepting the not so happy and shiny stuff. I've found that the people who can't accept it and who demand constant fake shiny happiness tend to be hurtful and selfish and cruel and to not be the sorts of people I like to be around.

I LOVE cats! :)

I think we'll get along. :) We'll see.

Date: 2017-04-23 07:17 pm (UTC)
penlessej: (Default)
From: [personal profile] penlessej
I am ENTP (https://www.16personalities.com/entp-personality) which I guess makes me the asshole who most people can never seem to understand. Reading this post feels like you adding meat to the skeleton in addme. Or better yet, adding colour to the outline of the addme post. It was great, thank you for taking the time to write it all down.

I am a fan of Ralph Nader from Canada because I value consumer protection and specifically seatbelts. Agnostic atheist sounds as entwined as dry rain or colourless sunset but I am interested none-the-less. And cities are most certainly overrated (in my humble opinion, said the ENTP).
Edited Date: 2017-04-23 07:18 pm (UTC)

Date: 2017-04-23 09:53 pm (UTC)
redsnake05: I feel sure that we shall deal famously together (Affection:We shall deal famously)
From: [personal profile] redsnake05
This was extremely informative, and I don't think you should feel bad about writing a novel. It's great for new people like me to get an idea of who you are and what you're doing with yourself. I hope you find my back entries interesting, or, at least, informative about the sort of person I am as well.

Date: 2017-04-23 10:11 pm (UTC)
teirae: painted greyscale (Default)
From: [personal profile] teirae
OMG I follow many pathology museums on social media, and a few people who work in the business =) I LOVE the human body and the insides and find it amazing (hence a nurse being my day job, and forensic art being my hobby). I also think skeletons are the most beautiful things in the world, and collect skulls =) if you do happen to visit the Mutter Museum please share all the photos with me!
small talk and gossip bore me so much too.
I love long comments too, and feel free to PM whenever =)
nice to meet you!!!

ps i am ESTP-A, except the P fluctuates to a J sometimes, and it is purely depended on if I give a crap about other people that day or not. or if I am trying to make an effort to care about other people.
i am also in Gryffindor if that helps too (although...and here is a secret, i have never read any of the books shhhh)
Edited Date: 2017-04-23 10:14 pm (UTC)

Date: 2017-04-23 10:37 pm (UTC)
kaiceph: (crystals)
From: [personal profile] kaiceph
I'm an INTJ! I love to know other people's mbti type.

What kinds of books do you like? I'm a Literature major, so that's basically all I talk about.

I'm very shy outside the internet as well. I walk fast and with my head down so nobody talks to me, but sometimes I get lonely.

Date: 2017-04-24 12:44 pm (UTC)
dissonantbeauty: (Default)
From: [personal profile] dissonantbeauty
I don't put much stock in Myers-Briggs, but FWIW I am also INFP. Or occasionally INTP, depending on the test. And I'm 37 as well, though I'm not really sure how that happened. I don't really feel 37.

A quiet life sounds wonderful. Mine is not quite so quiet as I would like sometimes. So I am slightly envious. :-)

I look forward to getting to know you.

Date: 2017-04-24 08:05 pm (UTC)
aery: (stella im hultberg | stripes)
From: [personal profile] aery
Thanks for sharing all of that with us!

I don't take the Myers-Briggs too seriously but my results are mostly INFJ in the few times I've taken it (I actually had to do it recently for one of my classes). I am also quite shy and like you, it was much worse when I was younger. I did not enjoy going up to the cash register at all :P

I understand what you mean about not being quite sure where home is. Ever since I lived overseas and now in a different city than I where I grew up I've been feeling that way too and it's funny because I never thought I would. I always thought I knew where home was, until I experienced something very different than what I was used to. I still think my hometown feels the most like home and yet I feel like I've changed a lot since I left, so it's not exactly the same whenever I do go back.

You have inspired me to do a similar post, something that I can refer new friends to in order to help them get a better idea of my life and the people and places I post about. A starting point I guess.

I know you mentioned that you don't post much, which is fine of course, but I'm looking forward to getting to know you so I hope you will be encouraged to continue to share with us :)

Date: 2017-04-26 03:28 am (UTC)
chouchoot: (Default)
From: [personal profile] chouchoot
INTJ here, and it still seems to stand in for a lot of ways to talk about things for me (or maybe i just really like personality tests more than the average human?).

i feel super invigorated seeing all this lovely dialogue. looking forward to getting to know you and reading along.

Date: 2017-04-26 04:49 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] friendlyxpsycho
Thank you for inviting me into your corner as well :) I identify with so much of what youve said here, and it was such a great read by the way!! You have a wonderful sense of humor!!

Date: 2017-05-02 04:16 am (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] jesse_dylan
I'm on my phone and can't even see what I'm typing. I just wanted to share amusement at how many interests we share. We even have a mutual friend! Why does it seem like the odds are so low? I found you because I clicked my own interest of infp, and there you were with Some similar interests to me that I haven't even listed. Anyway I hope there aren't a million typos and that this is somehow readable I was too excited not to comment. I don't meet people like myself very often. Usually when I do they run away too! I promise not to chase you if I scare you away. :)
Edited Date: 2017-05-02 04:18 am (UTC)

Date: 2017-05-03 03:04 am (UTC)
jesse_dylan: (Default)
From: [personal profile] jesse_dylan
Oh yeah, I still need to read this thoroughly, but last night I was so intrigued by the phrase "agnostic atheist." I laid in bed and thought and thought about it. I suppose I've just never heard it before, or did you make it up? I sometimes call myself an "accidental agnostic" (it was a horrible process becoming agnostic for me, and it was not on purpose). It made me think it would be fun to be an agnostic pagan. I want to celebrate the solstices. :) I fully realize A) this all might sound ludicrous to an atheist, and B) you don't discuss politics or religion in your blog. Which brings me to my next topic, Ralph Nader-- sorry, just joking! Please obviously feel 100% free to ignore and not reply to anything I say about religion or politics. I can usually stop myself!

I want to ramble on about agnosticism and politics (as separate topics), but I shall refrain. :) ...for now...

Date: 2017-05-09 11:53 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] tjoel2
Nice to be there! I totally connect with a number of things you have said here. I seriously suck in social situations and am horrible at small talk. So looking for real and authentic. Why does that seem so hard to find? I also don't shy away from the dark.

Date: 2017-06-05 06:35 pm (UTC)
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From: [personal profile] beheretinnitus
Urm, hello there from my small, awkward corner of Dreamwidth. Found you in the interests for Sebadoh and figured that made you a similar kind of awkward? Plus, you like The Depreciation Guild and that is awesome as well!

Date: 2017-07-07 01:22 am (UTC)
kn0tme: (Horse)
From: [personal profile] kn0tme
Hmm, apparently dW agreed with your profile statement "I am friendly. Come say hello!" because it dropped me here after I clicked the "explore random journal link". I'm an ENTP, but I do my best to not be overly E. I'm not on the toilet or wearing a cowboy hat as I type this, but the night is still young.
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